tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post3129147971045306127..comments2023-10-12T06:05:41.794-07:00Comments on OXYCONTIN and OPIATE ADDICTION-A Mother's Story: I'm still here...Debby of Oxycontin and Opiate Addiction: A Mother's Storyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14881167853310152283noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-21732716670473851352010-12-22T11:24:41.391-08:002010-12-22T11:24:41.391-08:00Hey,
I've been a heroin addict for nearly fou...Hey,<br /><br />I've been a heroin addict for nearly fourteen years, starting at 17.<br /><br />Ive struggled for years with it, and the damage and pain you cause your family is awful, it also feeds back into the cycle of using though through the guilt!<br /><br />Interesting blog anyway, I know writing really helps me.. I've recently started blogging about it all anyway<br /><br />Sids<br /><br /><a href="http://www.heroinjunkie.blogspot.com" rel="nofollow">Ive blogged about it anyway</a>Sidhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10708564994172183411noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-84480111271329617762010-12-19T05:30:49.109-08:002010-12-19T05:30:49.109-08:00I just read your whole blog. My name is Shelley an...I just read your whole blog. My name is Shelley and I'm an ex drug addict. I've been kicked out of my parents house. I've been through detoxes and rehabs, 2 of them that I was forced into before the age of 18. I've done probation-ordered meetings, and I've sat in jail. I've been robbed, kicked out, beaten up, everything. I've been a prostitute and a dealer but never a thief (it's not my style). None of this ever fazed me, it was a lifestyle I had glorified forever. I used to watch the homeless begging for change when I was 7 or 8 years old, and think "wow, imagine the FREEDOM those guys have! They don't have to be home for dinner, they don't have anyone telling them what to do, they can party all night if they want to." Maybe not the healthiest way to think, but there it was. What I'm trying to say was, there was no rehab or treatment center or 12 step meeting that had any sort of magical cure for me and my addiction- I "did time" at many of them (sometimes over a year) and it meant nothing to me. Desperation, "rock bottom", getting hurt, getting yet another felony, it all meant nothing because I wanted to get high.<br /><br />I've been clean now since Feb (or March, not sure?) 2009, clean off illegal drugs since Feb/March 2008. I decided I wanted to get clean, and I did it while still living on the streets. I did go through a methadone program (maintenance) for 1 year and it helped me immensely- mostly because I hated the way methadone made me feel and I wanted off it ASAP. It took me a year to kick the methadone and be completely off opiates. In September 2008 I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl who is my life in the way that drugs were once my life. She occupies my thoughts all day and makes me smile right when I wake up- I love her more than I ever thought possible. The odds are, she might end up drug addicted (as she was born addicted to methadone). Maybe I'll get to be the mother of a drug addict too, and maybe I'll deserve everything I get. But I just wanted to share that young people can and do get sober- ONLY IF THEY WANT TO. Those stupid 12 step meetings and detox centers did nothing but get me a whole new group of friends to get high with. My parents (no offense to you) also seemed to have THEIR way for me to get clean- boarding school, NA meetings, sponsorship, random UA testing, etc. This didn't work for me because I didn't want it, although I could pretend I wanted it if it got me something else I wanted. I found my own way and never looked back. Good luck to your boy and to you- some of us can make it. Hope he's in that 3% or whatever it is now.<br /><br />One last thing- my parents were also extremely supportive. I could always count on them to buy me food if I spent all my money on heroin, let me stay the night if I was homeless and it was raining hard, give me a ride, buy me lunch, put gas in my car, etc. If I had moved back home (per their requests) I don't think I ever would have gotten clean. I needed to understand that NO ONE HAD MY BACK if I spent all my cash on heroin and didn't have a place to sleep or any money to eat. You gotta do what you think is right for your family, but living at home (a home like you described yours to be) is so cozy, so easy, and so boring (as in, not filled with the drama of the streets) that it's an easy place to say that you're gonna do just one more (in my case, shot). Parents are easy to lie to (as you may have noticed) especially when they really want to trust you. I can look my mom in the eye and tell her the exact opposite of what's going on- I'm not proud of that fact, but it's true. It makes me feel worse since I became a mother myself, although my daughter is still just a baby (2 years old) I feel that protective unconditional love that I know won't end when she turns 10, or 18, or 21, or 50.<br /><br />-shelleyShelleynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-34566378779905346192010-11-30T14:27:32.448-08:002010-11-30T14:27:32.448-08:00Hope all is well and think of you often...Hope all is well and think of you often...A Mom's Serious Blunderhttp://www.madyson007.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-35473217287305045562010-11-15T18:46:22.986-08:002010-11-15T18:46:22.986-08:00when I came off my drug of choice... I was on subo...when I came off my drug of choice... I was on suboxone for some time... now i can say, i'm sober and have been... would not want to go back pn any form of mind altering med...<br /><br />praying for your son..<br /><br />Beautifully AwkwardHer Broken Winghttp://www.herbrokenwing.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-86675004728748498752010-11-12T08:11:18.855-08:002010-11-12T08:11:18.855-08:00I hope your son can stay clean for himself and his...I hope your son can stay clean for himself and his family. I was engaged to someone who got addicted to heroin while we were together, it is not pretty. His family did stick by him and he has since gotten off of heroin, but he has a problem with pills now. Just remember that you are not a health professional and only your son can help himself along with his doctor. All you can do is support him the best you can and prey.simplecookingwithdorishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11162470705057179338noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-51180604432008426772010-11-12T08:11:00.224-08:002010-11-12T08:11:00.224-08:00I hope your son can stay clean for himself and his...I hope your son can stay clean for himself and his family. I was engaged to someone who got addicted to heroin while we were together, it is not pretty. His family did stick by him and he has since gotten off of heroin, but he has a problem with pills now. Just remember that you are not a health professional and only your son can help himself along with his doctor. All you can do is support him the best you can and prey.simplecookingwithdorishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11162470705057179338noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-41693231634362467692010-10-29T17:55:46.004-07:002010-10-29T17:55:46.004-07:00So good to hear from you again Debbie.So good to hear from you again Debbie.Erinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13169949411104658849noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-46174745558436025632010-10-27T18:07:16.326-07:002010-10-27T18:07:16.326-07:00I'm glad you're still there.I'm glad you're still there.Cynthia Newcomer Danielhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06644821559839047113noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-54969424915253602832010-10-25T22:45:45.263-07:002010-10-25T22:45:45.263-07:00Thank you for sharing your story. I have been wat...Thank you for sharing your story. I have been watching my 27 year old brother battle a heroin addiction (and pills of course) for the past 5 years. This week things are going well...but you never know what next week will bring. I pray for him every night to get it together. It makes me sad that its not that easy. It also makes me sad how many people are going through this. It definitely affects the entire family.<br /><br />So again, I so appreciate you sharing your story. It helps more than you know.<br /><br />Ashley in ArizonaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-8976567771185417812010-10-24T20:48:26.745-07:002010-10-24T20:48:26.745-07:00Im so glad to find your blog. It inspired me to ge...Im so glad to find your blog. It inspired me to get my recovery blog up and going. thanks will be back often I'm sure.Melinda https://www.blogger.com/profile/18144940269638448146noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-67521804557059958652010-10-23T21:10:39.744-07:002010-10-23T21:10:39.744-07:00Nice to hear that you and your son continue to be ...Nice to hear that you and your son continue to be doing well Debby. My best to you both.Tom at Recovery Helpdeskhttp://www.recoveryhelpdesk.com/probuphine/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-84822767517743289132010-10-19T04:36:09.934-07:002010-10-19T04:36:09.934-07:00Dear Mother (Debbie)...you will touch many hearts ...Dear Mother (Debbie)...you will touch many hearts as you blog along (again). Some will cry with you, some laugh with joy, some 'sigh', and some will pray with and for you.<br /><br />You write that you will share 'this' and not 'that'. Hopefully you will use this forum to grow...and help others to grow. Blessings! Good to 'see' you again, girl!<br /><br />PEACE!<br />Steve Esteveronihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17498524940140288735noreply@blogger.com