tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post7721774547334322966..comments2023-10-12T06:05:41.794-07:00Comments on OXYCONTIN and OPIATE ADDICTION-A Mother's Story: On Being a Mom, on Mother's DayDebby of Oxycontin and Opiate Addiction: A Mother's Storyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14881167853310152283noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-45237676354825225352012-08-13T14:17:22.727-07:002012-08-13T14:17:22.727-07:00Debby,
Hi I wanted to leave a comment as I have st...Debby,<br />Hi I wanted to leave a comment as I have started reading your first entry and have made it to this one. I plan on reading start to current. I first, want to thank you for sharing your story! It takes courage and strength to share what you are. I know because I wish now that I would have done this on a regular basis, versus only once in a great while.<br /><br />July 28th was the one year anniversary of my would be 22 year old sisters overdose and death. She was addicted to opiates. She was more of a child to me, then a sister. I am 37 years old.<br /><br />I hurt still today, like it was yesterday I got the call I prayed I never would get. I have went from angry, to self blaming, to just pure sad, then repeated. <br /><br />Even though it has been a year since I lost my sister/child. I still find myself reading others stories online. None of it will bring her back, but I feel like it is the only way I can overcome my anger and hate (which is a word I do NOT use lightly) to the pills. <br /><br />Maybe I worded that wrong? I will always dislike the pills. I am more hoping reading others stories will help me with some closure. I wasn't naive when my sister passed away. Because addiction is something I have dealt with most of my life. What hurts the most is that my sister was so young, beautiful, loving, giving, compassionate, among many other things. And had her whole life to live still. And it all ended because of a little pill (many little pills). <br /><br />I will add a link to 2 posts in my blog that I have wrote since her passing. I have SO much I could write just to simply vent and let my feelings out on my blog. But just don't have it in me. <br /><br />My mother is a long time alcoholic herself. And I had gotten to a point that I became so numb to her or my sister being placed in "another" treatment to "work" another program. I am resentful towards my mother, because I have a hard time not blaming her for numbing me to these treatments.<br /><br />Then just 4 months ago my mother who has always been addicted to drinking and drinking only. Decided to try to take Xanax while drinking. Not just swallowing them, but crushing them and snorting them, and also chewing them. I got a call at 9pm that she was unresponsive and overdosing. I spent almost a week in the ICU with her, while she was on a ventilator. So did my 15 year old daughter. Who refused to leave her side. The doctor told us that it was very important for family to be there if and when she woke up. <br /><br />When she woke up, even in a very weak state she was going to be ok. Which was a huge relief. But, she was more angry at me than anything for the fact that she was going right back to treatment. Which is where she still is until March. She had only been out of treatment for 3 days when she overdosed. <br /><br />Maybe this is what is making my healing, and grieving process so hard. Is while I lost my sister, I am still living and dealing with my mother's addiction. <br /><br />This comment has gotten very long. I really just wanted to introduce myself to you since I plan on reading your blog start to now. <br /><br />Thank you again for sharing your story!<br /><br />Robyn<br /><br />http://mycreativecornerandthings.blogspot.com/2011/10/sad-long-overdue-update.html<br /><br />http://mycreativecornerandthings.blogspot.com/2011/11/happy-22nd-birthday-kate-venting.html<br /><br />My blog...<br />http://mycreativecornerandthings.blogspot.com/Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-91752852673340066532008-05-11T19:44:00.000-07:002008-05-11T19:44:00.000-07:00I just received this email from a mother I have me...I just received this email from a mother I have met online:<BR/>Dated today/My son has relapsed and my heart is broken. He's disgusted with himself and, I believe, wants to get back on track. He's back in his intensive outpatient program, so I'm praying this will be a small setback. I just keep reminding myself what they told me in the family program at La Hacienda. "Relapse is part of recovery and is to be expected in most cases." <BR/><BR/>He used drugs, off and on, for 10 years and was never arrested or in any legal trouble. He lives in a sober living environment, where he's tested regularly, so I believe him when he tells me he just relapsed within the last week. Ironically, he was stopped because of an expired license plate, searched, and was arrested for drug possession for the first time in his life. God stepped in here. This was a big, scary wake up call at a time when he desperately needed one and before he got too out of control. He sat in jail for 36 hours, for the first time in his life. He had a lot of time to think and pray, and I believe he got the message like he's never gotten it before. He's so disappointed in himself and sorrowful for what he's put us through. I'm both angry and compassionate. I'd give anything to take this monkey off his back, but I know that only he can do it for himself. I have to find the blessing in this, but I continue to be soooooo angry at these drugs and what they're doing to our kids.<BR/><BR/>Please pray for us. I continue to pray for you and your son.<BR/><BR/>Your new friend through our horrible shared experience,<BR/>Jane<BR/><BR/>P.S. Happy Mother's Day.Foodiewifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00071730074240565916noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8452076560635353634.post-74812279480262705052008-05-11T15:48:00.000-07:002008-05-11T15:48:00.000-07:00Debby,Wow! Thank you for sharing you thoughts...I...Debby,<BR/>Wow! Thank you for sharing you thoughts...I'm glad that B is trying to take the right path..I'll keep him in prayers, yet. <BR/><BR/>Your thoughts/story about your Mom reminds me very much of my youth and relationship with my Mom. <BR/><BR/>She'll be 81 in June. I'll visit her over the Mmorial day weekend. You have me thinking about words to say....<BR/>Thanks for sharing your good news and thoughts....<BR/>KatherineKatherinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03331743413588961338noreply@blogger.com