PAWS - A rough night for my son

It's late-- for me, at least. I could tell that something wasn't right with my son. A mother just feels these things. He was napping when I got home (he gets off work an hour earlier than I do). B ate a little bit of food and went back into his room. He was curled up in the fetal position.

Just a short while ago, he said his blood sugar was low (he's an insulin dependent diabetic). I got him some candy that I keep just for these occasions. B finally curled up on the couch, next to me, and said he's withdrawing again.

For anyone who is new to my blog, my son has been testing clean since January, for opiates. However, there is a condition called PAWS - POST ACCUTE WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME. At my son's detox center, we were told that this can happen anywhere from weeks to six months after my son's detox.

B says he is feeling like it's his first day in detox. There is nothing I can do to help him. There is nothing B can really do to help with the symptoms. He says he doesn't want to use. He just feels like crap.

It breaks my heart to see him this way. It also brings back memories of seeing him in his treatment center, just over a year ago.

Those of you who have used, or are using, opiates know what he's talking about. He's hurting.

All I can do is to let him know that I am here, if I can help. He has his sponsors phone number. B is watching television in his room. We tested him, yesterday, and he's now completely clean-- no traces of THC, nor opiates. Fortunately, alcohol is not something he enjoys.

Dear God-- I pray that you will bring healing and comfort to my son. Please help him pass through this phase. I pray that he will not be tempted to find self-medication to deal with his physical discomfort.

Amen.