- I am not an expert on this drug, at all. Tomorrow morning, I am meeting with my son and his drug counselor at the methadone clinic. If I am going to agree to use the small amount of money, left in his trust fund, to fund this-- I want answers.
- The clinic he is going to is reputable. It's run by a non-profit that I am very familiar with. Our school district contracts their counseling services, and I'm impressed with their counselors.
- In order to take his daily "dose", my son has to take random UA's. So far, he's taken three.
- My son is scared of methadone. He is fully aware of the dangers-- believe me, he's run the list down for me. His own counselor says that the maximum length of time my son should be on the program is six months. My son is going for three.
- Once my son is off methadone, I am fully aware-- as is he, that he could be highly vulnerable to wanting to use.
Obviously, he doesn't want this. I am going to ask a lot of questions and take notes. I'll share what I learn.
In a perfect world--
- My son would go to meetings, on a regular basis (he's sporadic).
- B would not need any kind of prescription meds to deal with his insomnia, stress or opiate addiction.
- My son could come home to live with us, and go to college and work part time.
- B would use his outgoing personality skills to become a counselor, and to tell his story to others.
One of the best things I did for B, was to make him move out. My son is beginning to appreciate what he had, by losing it. He doesn't have a comfy home with all the amenities. He cannot afford to go out and eat, buy clothes or have cable TV. His life is very humble, indeed. He's had to deal with bad roommates, and having his power cut off for not paying it on time.
My son is learning life skills.
As for his not living in our home-- there is peace again. The constant drama began to affect my marriage. I got to the point that every time I saw black smudges on door jams, I suspected it was black tar heroin residue. I found myself searching his pockets for foils; if I found them, it made me sick to my stomach.
With my son not living with me, I do not have to get sucked into his world of addiction. He is welcome to have dinner with us, or wash a load of laundry.
What I see as positives steps is that my son is working, and he's beginning to adjust to a life at poverty level. This is not easy, but I think this is very necessary.
Maybe, if my son can stay sober long enough-- and I see some responsibility... we can discuss his going to college and having a job.
Truthfully, I hope that my son will find sobriety and remain on his own. It's how our kids learn to mature, and I won't be tempted to fall into codependency and enabling him.
PERSONAL NOTE TO ANGELO: I have read your passionate comments about the dangers of methadone. I'm sorry that you've know many people who OD'd on it. Actually, I know plenty of success stories. Angelo, it's like any kind of therapy-- one must be responsible with it, know the dangers and risks, and then it's up to them to make the choice. Suboxone didn't work for him I think his heroin use had gone on too long, and was too much. So far, the boy that I know and love is beginning to return. I take it one day at a time.