Sunday, August 23, 2009

Coming to grips with addiction

Good afternoon and thank you, one and all, for your public comments and your private emails.

I am leaving for town very shortly, but I wanted to update all of you with how I am doing--

After three weeks of absence, I went to church and it was a fantastic message. The message was titled "When Prayers Aren't Answered...". I need to revisit my notes and gather my thoughts.

I want to say this-- I think God is answering prayers for my son! So far, my son has not been arrested, overdosed and he is still alive.

God made it possible for us to put him into a rehab for 30 days that would have cost $36,000. Fortunately, my husband's insurance paid 90% of it. Praise God!

My son called me yesterday, to check in with me. He was in the Bay Area and he was excited that they were headed to San Francisco.

"What's wrong, mom?" he asked.

"I'm just tired and full of thoughts", I reply too quickly.

He chats to me in a good mood and then he pauses...

"Mom, you're acting weird. What's up?"

So, I tell him what we found in his room. He makes excuses that it's old stuff and he's clean.

I tell him I'm sad and I love him.

He tells me he loves me.

We hang up and I say a quiet prayer to God, telling Him I trust he is watching over my son.

An hour later my son calls. His friend's car broke down and they are being towed 98 miles south to where we live.

Did God answer a prayer?

I think so.

More to come later...

Overall, I'm handling things better than expected. This morning, in church, I visualized handing my grown son over to God. I raised him the best that I could.

It's all in God's hands. I truly believe that, with all of my heart.

I love my son. That will never stop.

I want to make this blog my ministry and support to others. I thank those of you who read my blog and share your thoughts and encouragement.

THIS is the best support I could ask for. I've tried meetings, but for many reasons, it didn' t help.

YOU, my readers help me most.

Thank you, thank you.


Anonymous said...

I think He answers prayers in more ways than one. They may be answered in ways we never thought of. I'm glad things worked out the way they did.

Still praying for the best.


Susan DeAngelis said...

I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Yes, I truly believe that God works in mysterious ways.

Remember, if you need to talk, please email me.

My thoughts are with you.

Barbara(aka Layla) said...

Oh, I am so glad the car broke I read that he called about that my immediate thought was that he was going to ask you for money.

I am glad you got a good message at church. I feel very hopeful today too! I don't know why and I am not going to question it :)

I started a separate blog to talk about my son and his addiction. My other blog is for other things.

You can find it via my profile, I think the name will be obvious as to which one it is....

Mom of Opiate Addict said...

I agree with you, my blog and the comments from the loving people have been a blessing for me and in that God has answered my prayers and yours. IKeep giving it to God, it is all we can do.

Brother Frankie said...

i am praising God for what He is doing in your life as well as your son.

I truly believe that the car thing was a road block put up by the Lord.

you will continue to find these folks that read your blog truly care about you.

still praying
Brother Frankie
A Biker for Christ

angelo212 said...

In my opinion I am hoping he is ble to stay on suboxone while in treatment. Some facilitys allow it. If this one doesn't I recommend him going on it as soon as he comes home. 30 days will give him a foundation but the obsession to use will be with him when he leaves there if not right away it will be there shortly. Please have him go back on suboxone after the 30 days of treatment. It will totally take away his obsession to use and he'll have 30 days away from all his bad habits which is a great start.

angelo212 said...

Look, I don't want to scare you but he is very young and got caught into the grips of this awful drug. I never knew anyone at that young of an age that was able to stop. In rehab they will tell him out of you 50 people in front of me only 5 of use are going to make it. If he goes back on the suboxone he will make it or has a 85% better chance of making it IMO. If he leaves the program those feeling of wanting to use will come. It is a brain disease at this point. Go to the suboxonetalkzone or the suboxtalkzone and listen to his tapes there or on youtube. It's very late and I want to write more but will tomorrow.

Barbara(aka Layla) said...

Angelo, I saw your comment here. My son was on suboxone too but he knew he could skip a few days and use then take it again....I overheard him arranging to sell some of his suboxone. I am not sure if I should go through the whole suboxne thing with him again or not. I just can't tell if it helps, he says it does but he lies about everything.