I also spent three years working with the high school ministry at my church. One of the most memorable events was a six week small group. I'd have six to eight high school students and we'd talk about really "deep" things. The kids didn't have to be a believer-- they could be seeking. Many a tissue was passed around, because many tears of pain were shared-- including my own.
My point is this-- I have learned how precious it is when a teenager or young adult lets you into their world. Our high school pastor used to say it takes a lot of work to gain their trust.
I'm there with my son. Sometimes, my son and I are alone in my car, and he'll start to open up. He'll say something to me about how he is feeling. Trust me, this is not manipulation. He is sharing with me his fears. These are short moments, but I consider them small gifts from him. I don't share all of what he says on this blog. I consider these to be sacred-- between us.
I so want to understand what's hurting him. Why? I see my son so incapable of dealing with stress.
I am always appreciative when an addict lets me into their world-- not the facade, but into their deepest feelings. It helps me to try and understand, because that's what I want to do.
I regret that my life never including a college degree, nor onto a Master's Degree. It was my dream to be a licensed marriage family therapist.
I believe that God gave me many gifts, as he does to all of us. I'm just comfortable with adolescents. I'm not afraid of them, and I don't dislike them. I watch the kids at my school, and I am very comfortable talking to them, teasing them, and learning their names. I notice the invisible kids.
I have added "Trapped In Addiction" to my blog roll. Ron sent me the link. It's his son. I hope that Alex will continue to blog. One day, I hope my son will write something for this blog. He knows about it, but doesn't ask to read it. Maybe he will-- when he's ready.
I received this comment, yesterday. It was anonymous, so I don't know the credentials of the writer. Still, I found the information interesting. I thought I'd pass it along for you to read. It's about suboxone and methadone:It's Friday. I'm ready to unwind. I'd love one weekend, at least, of no drama. Just peace, a fire, and time with my husband. Just the two of us.
Hi there. I just stumbled across our story and just wanted to give you a little better idea regarding the difference between methadone and suboxone.
Both medications are opioids--synthetic opiates. Suboxone has another drug added--naloxone--to discourage the crushing and misuse of the medication. In addition Suboxone has a ceiling effect--a dose at which it ceases to be more effective if increased past. Methadone does not. Studies have shown that, in general, pts who need more than about 60mgs of methadone to control their symptoms don't do well on Suboxone, and the average needed dose of methadone is 80-120 mgs. Suboxone and methadone are really targeted at two different populations, with some degree of overlap. Suboxone is targeted to those with lighter habits of shorter duration. Methadone is targeted to those with heavier, longer habits. They both work in basically the same way however.
Some people find that suboxone makes them feel depressed, anhedonic (unable to feel normal pleasure), etc. We don't know why this is--some feel it may be due to the effects of the naloxone addition or the fact that buprenorphine itself is a partial opiate agonist and may possibly decrease the brain's production of natural endorphins. However, once the pt. is stabilized on the medication, neither drug will cause a high or euphoria, so there is no reason to assume that your son wants methadone so he can get high on it, etc.
Some folks only need short term treatment with MAT (medication assisted therapy) and others need long term treatment due to permanent impairment of the brain's ability to produce endorphins caused by long term opiate abuse. Many loved ones try to urge their family members to leave treatment before they are ready and this leads usually to disaster. The relapse rates for those leaving methadone treatment are 90% within the first year. However, for those who remain IN treatment, the success rate of Methadone treatment is higher than any other treatment for opioid addiction, by far.
I wish your son all the best and hope things go well for him.