"Hello?", I hesitantly answered.
It was my son. He was just up the street from me. He showed up, within minutes of asking if he could come by (of course, I was waiting for him to hit me up for lunch or lunch money). He was with his roommate-- "Allen". I was pleasantly surprised that my son sat and actually visited with me. I clearly noticed that his legs weren't shaking up and down. When he was using, he was always in a hurry...very distracted. This time, he was relaxed.
I asked him how it felt to be "home" again, and he said that the familiar cravings came back as soon as he saw Salinas. His roommate chimed in that there was no way he'd let B visit his old turf.
I felt so thankful to know that there is a mature man looking after my son. Thank you, God!
Why is B here, you are wondering...
His father is doing about $1500.00 in repairs on his car.
How do I feel about this?
Again, I hear one side of B's dad saying he's broke and has no money. Yet, his father seems to come up with money to fix our son's car.
I'm very proud of myself. The only thing I said to my son was "you are very lucky that your dad is willing to do this for you".
No further comment, lest I say things that are not pleasing to God.
It was nice to see my son, of course. So far, I don't see any behavior that indicates he's using.
For that, I sing praises and thanks to God.
As I look back to April 1st, my son is approaching 60 days of sobriety. It has been a wild and crazy ride of worries and emotions. I continue to give ALL the glory to our God Almighty-- for he has truly been merciful and good to my son and to me.
I feel that I've made a few strong steps in a forward direction in that I am backing off trying to "help" my son with my wisdom. He needs to learn, and I do think he's trying.
So, today, I'm feeling "calm".
That reminds me of Matthew 14: 25-32
25During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear.
27But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."
28"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
29"Come," he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
32And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."