I truly hope that you were not offended by the comments that were posted in the last few days. I hope you know that I posted your comment because I felt it had value-- it was worth reading. Listening to addicts speak is something I rarely get to do. I want to understand you. For those of you who missed Ryan's follow-up comment, please scroll down to find it. Ryan, you have been through so much! I appreciate your candor, and I read the pain in what you write. I hope that you have/start a blog. I would love to continue hearing from you.
I received a private email from someone who said it's okay for me to share it. Here is her story"
My husband is a recovered addict his drug of choice was crack cocaine. For years I along with his mother and father tried to help him stop using. I controlled all of the money, hid the car keys, and watched him like a hawk. In the end if he wanted to use he would no matter what i or his parents did to help or stop him. Finally i was tired and afraid for myself and our children so i left. His addiction continued until he lost his home he than moved in with his parents claiming that he was done of course he wasn't. My husbands parents also were afraid and didn't see any change. In over a year they told him he had to go. Struggling with addiction on his own and no where to go brought him to his knees with his hands in the air surrendering there was only one person who would except him and it was a complete stranger that showed him the way but only if he wanted it under any and all conditions willing to do anything to stay clean.
See it's when we're stripped of everything with NO WHERE TO GO will we get help on our own. And our family and friends can't help us.
We find NA ON OUR OWN when we are brought to our knees not because a family member or probation officer told us to. We find it because in our hearts we are done and can't go another day in this life.
My husband will be seven years clean in February and are family is together and safe thanks to NA and helping other fellow addicts.
It's there if he wants it, but HE has to want it completely!
I am returning to work, after battling a cold so I don't have time to write much. Your comments mean the world to me. That is why I post some of them so that nobody misses them.